When You Feel Like Quitting — Listen to This First

Ever had a week where every fiber of your being says no thanks to life? Same. This episode is for the girlies who are exhausted, uninspired, overwhelmed — but still show up. I talk about feeling off, training through burnout, and why doing something (even just washing your face or recording a chaotic podcast) counts as self-respect. This isn’t about perfection — it’s about grit, energy rationing, and building confidence on the worst days. If you’re in the thick of it, this one’s for you. 

Transcript

 Hello and welcome to the new episode. This is gonna be a short one because this is me showing up for you, showing up for myself. But honestly not gonna lie, I am not doing my best. I. It took me a lot of energy and a lot of willpower to sit down and start recording this. I've pro prob probably since I've started the new season, this is probably the most reluctant I've been to record.

Like genuinely every bone in my body is saying, nah, because it hasn't been the best week. You know how I'm affected by the weather and it's just not getting better. And this week is just, and every week I look at the. Weather forecast and I'm like, one more week. One more week. It is gonna be fine. One more week of my long winter jacket and then I'll change my jacket into a colder one.

And it's gonna be nice and I'm gonna walk around and, but no, it's not happening. But anyway, I. This week I just had no desire to do anything. I also feel sick because I'm probably not resting enough because it's my last full week of training before High Rocks. So I was feeling like a little under the weather, my energy's gone.

I. I'm about to do, yeah, my first high rock, so I have to be very strategic, but I also have to train a little bit. And on top of that, I just got my period. I just feel grossed, stressed out. There's been some personal stuff, so it's a bit of a mess. And this morning I was like, on top of all of that, I have to hit record and pretend to be motivational and pretend I'm enthusiastic about life at the moment when I'm not, and then I'm real. I realize that I am actually, I can actually be motivational because I'm still here and I'm still recording. When it would've been so easy to just not, and I'm sharing this because I know you've been there too. That feeling of being completely done with life before the day even starts.

The overwhelm, the fatigue, the I just can today. It's fine if I don't, and then you know how I always say listen to your body and be kind to yourself, but there is a limit. There is a limit to how much kindness you can give yourself. I'm not in a position to give myself kindness right now 'cause this is my last week of training.

I'll be kind to myself after I'm done. I can be kind to myself and say, Hey guys, this week I didn't record. I'm so sorry, but I also don't know that. I also know that there is nothing going on. That is really preventing me from recording. It's just my own willpower and me keeping promises to myself. And as I'm sitting here and I keep talking, I'm realizing it's not that bad and that's how it usually is.

And I'm getting energy and desire to record as I'm saying this. So I want this to be your motivation. ' cause I have zero right now and I'm here showing up for you because I wanna help you. So here's the thing. You can't let external chaos dictate what you feel internally, I, you have to show up. You just have to, even if it's messy, even if you're a low energy, you're feeling a little sick, you feeling tired, even if it's the bare minimum, you have to show up.

You have to determine what the bare minimum is of showing up for yourself and do it because it's not about perfection at this point. It's about self-respect. This is the stuff that you do to build character, not the days when everything's easy and you are glowing and hydrated and walking through life just easily and you got your morning coffee and the perfect playlist and the sun is shining.

You are wearing your feel good outfit that those days it's easy, but it's on days like this that you keep showing up. Everything sucks, and you still choose to keep a promise to yourself. This is where self-growth happens, and this is how you create self-respect, and this is how you grow your confidence.

So this week I'm not necessarily feeling like the wellness girl. I didn't feel like recording my workouts and I didn't, and this is where I failed. But again, I have to find that balance okay. I could have not worked out at all, but at least I'm doing it. I'm still preparing. I'm still training.

Okay. I'll skip one week of recording. There is nothing new per se that is happening that I have to show you guys anyway, and I also have a plan for what I do when I'm done training, you're not gonna hear See the end of it. So be prepared. It's not like I am indefinitely taking a pause, right? But I am intentionally rationing my energy because I know I'm gonna need it.

I, but I don't feel glowy this week. I feel bloated, tired, irritable. Anxious and motivated. But I decided that I'm not gonna let it be the reason I give up. That's the reason to lean in harder. Keep working on myself because I don't have to do an intense workout. I was going to gonna do a full high rock simulation yesterday with a friend, and I showed up and I was feeling not my best, and I knew if I was gonna go full out, I'll probably wake up really sick today.

So I just did some things. I pushed some sleds. I pulled some sleds. I did some farmer scary, so I took it easy, but I still did something so I don't feel like I'm giving up. And did it make me feel amazing? No, but it made me feel like I'm doing something and I still kept my promise to myself. I'm still aligned with my goals and I just know that you are not always going to feel like it.

And everything in life is never gonna be perfectly aligned to make you feel inspired and motivated and ready. There will always be something, whether it's like this week, my period, my job, my, I don't know, my friends, my body image, my mood, whatever it is, you are not made.

You are not here to come up with excuses. You have grit. You have willpower, and you have sense of a sense of agency. Let me just say, doing something is always better than doing nothing, even if all you can do today is wash your face, go for a walk, answer two emails. Record a five minute podcast that you didn't wanna record.

This is all you're doing that's still showing up, and you are still keeping your word to yourself. So stop giving external thanks. Power over your internal world. The weather doesn't get to decide my attitude and my mood. It wants to, and it's been challenging me, and it does a little bit, but I'm not letting it get to me.

Really, my cramps don't get to cancel my plans. My workload doesn't get to affect my internal peace. I'm not letting those things. It's very easy to let them, but I'm not letting them. I know what I need to do. If I'm stressed, I meditate. I go for a walk, I go to the gym. I talk to a friend. If I am. Not feeling up to doing a complete workout.

Maybe I'll go for a longer walk. Maybe I'll do half, but I'll do something. I'm in the thick of it right now and I know you are too with whatever it is you are going through. But you know what? Even when you're not necessarily thriving and you're struggling and you can still say, I'm gonna try and I'm gonna do my best, this is where the magic happens.

Just remember that in a couple of weeks we are going to be soaking up in the sun sipping something on a patio, laughing, living. It's gonna get better. It's gonna get better. It's bound to, and you'll back at this winter and this whole like few months. That's, that have been hell, honestly. And we'll be proud that you didn't give up and you kept going and you know you'll be able to handle anything.

So whatever the, your version is of showing up today, do it just one step, whether it's you're trying to create more content, you're trying to set boundaries, you're trying to talk to your friends more, one step, whatever this goal that you have, it takes one tiny decision to get there, to start getting there.

And honestly, I'm gonna say I'm not a fan of. A lot of like self, I, I have self-compassion, but I'm not a fan of indulging in it. But honestly, don't blame yourself for not being a hundred percent every day. You are doing better than you think. If you're surviving this winter, especially in Toronto, you are allowed to rest sometimes, but you are not allowed to quit.

We keep going, not because it's easy, but because we are worth it. We value ourselves, we keep our promises. Okay, this has been a bit hectic and I'm aware, but this is all I got right now. And again, is it my best episode? Probably not, but I'm still here. I'm showing up and please let me know what you think because I know that you guys have been going through it as well.

Love you. Keep going. You've got this, and I'll see you in the next episode.