Tired but Inspired: Finding Balance in the Hustle

This week, I’m showing up exhausted but committed! We’re diving into overcommitment, why I’m cutting back on dance workshops, and how I’m refocusing on personal goals. Plus, thoughts on calisthenics, Toronto’s Taylor Swift week, and why “deficit mindset” isn’t welcome here. A little ramble, a lot of realness—tune in for the wholesome winter arc vibes.

Transcript

Hello everyone and welcome. I am so tired I can barely speak, but obviously there is no way I'm not recording a new episode, especially after I promised you multiple times that I'm not gonna miss  another week.  If you're new here, I missed a couple of weeks right prior to this, so now I'm obviously not going back on my promise and I'm here even though I'm so tired.

I don't know what it is.  Don't know if it's because I'm on my period or something else, or it's the weather changing, but I've been so tired all week. I could barely put on makeup. Basically make myself get out of the house. I mostly just went to the gym. I didn't go anywhere else. I worked from home all week  maybe went for a walk.

But yeah, like Monday Tuesday Wednesday I literally did not have any energy and this is wild I thought it was maybe like a virus because a couple of my friends are also sick and they think They feel very tired too. So maybe it's that but I'm still tired And I don't know what it is and today I try to sleep so well since I'm in my era where I'm listening to my body and all of that, I slept in,  that meaning,  until 8. 30, but still that is long for me and I felt so tired and I had a dance class in, during the day so I didn't go to the gym because I wanted to be mindful of my energy and I had a, have a birthday party tomorrow.  My friend is turning 40 and we're going to Soluna, which hopefully I can get away with just going to dinner because I honestly just want to be home at a reasonable hour and have some time to unwind because tomorrow I have a full day of dancing, which I know is crazy.

I've mentioned before that I've overcommitted to all these workshops. Now I'm in four different workshops, but I only have two weeks till two of them end, and then in two more weeks, the rest of them end, and I'm finally free. I think this year I've given so much energy to dancing, which is insane, and I think I've improved a lot, and I feel my body  much better and I understand the mechanics of dancing much better, but I think I need to slow down because this is literally not a priority.

It's been a great way for me to connect with people and spend time but now that I am working on expanding my brand and working on my affirmations on my newsletter. I'm working to create an IRL community This has to be my priority and maybe I should cut down on dancing and dance once or twice a week and also it's Most importantly, I feel like people find time for whatever they want to find time It's just my energy level and it's  interfering with my workout with my lifting and this is always my priority and has been and it always will be because this is more important for health reasons and yeah I know that my goal for this year is to get one unassisted pull up in  And like today I was supposed to do that and I didn't have energy So yeah, I feel like it's just interfering with my life too much So I'm definitely I'll definitely be cutting down on it next week next year But yeah, this has been with what's happened.  Yeah, so this is what's been going on  And my apartment's a mess. I don't have time or energy to clean up Yeah, it's a bit my life's a bit messy right now I think I mentioned last week that I got a new air purifier and I decided to keep it Because I was I contacted support and I was like look it shows me that my air quality is excellent And literally all the time except when i'm cooking do I even need it and they were like just keep it because You  It's because it's excellent doesn't mean it's optimal and second of all they gave me partial cash back and they were able to Lower the cost of my filters which I was like, okay, that's good enough And yeah, you never know and it has a lifetime warranty.

So who knows where I'm gonna live in my life I'm gonna bring it with me and hopefully I'm gonna use it for a long time  and maybe If I ever live in a house, maybe in a different city, my air quality would not be excellent. So yeah, I decided to keep it and  Obviously, it's also an investment in my health and I have been sleeping better with it.

So yeah I just don't want to be in this energy where again, I don't like deficit mindset and I don't like saving money on things that make my life better. So yeah, I decided to keep it I am also, what else is going on? I am also in a crisis in terms of my workouts Because I realized that strength training hasn't gotten me.

Okay. I have not been training  Optimally for my upper body. I've been putting on muscle and maintaining what I have But I've been focusing more on my lower body that and I think my upper body is still pretty strong but I think I would like it to be stronger, and I've been looking for new ways to enhance my workouts, especially after I was training for High Rocks.

This is such an unspecific workout load for me, and I feel like  I have improved a lot, and  in terms of strength, agility, mobility, and all of that, and  Speed and yeah, this is not something that I typically do and I'm looking to expand my horizons And I've been thinking of getting into calisthenics. I'm watching all these videos of people doing pistol squats and just being like so strong and I think I might want to do that and it's pretty cool And I'm going to feel like such a badass.

So I've been thinking about doing that. I looked into classes, but I don't think it's a thing, at least not in Toronto. People don't do calisthenics classes per se, but I would love one because like, when I'm, especially when you're learning something new, I'm specifically bad at motivating myself or I go slower than I would like to.

if I'm not with a group or with a class, if I'm not obligated. So if you know any calisthenics classes where you can just do simple stuff or like maybe there is progressions like in Pilates  that would be amazing, but I haven't found any and I don't want a private instructor because it's a lot of money and it's not a priority and this is definitely something that I could do on my own.

But yeah, that would be so interesting.  Still waiting to hear if I got in for the Into the marathon in Miami haven't heard yet. But  Yeah, if I don't hear by December I guess I'm not doing it because I would like some time to train because you can definitely raw dog a half but not the full thing,  but yeah, Definitely looking for a new challenge when it comes to working out. 

I'm  It's a bit crazy right now in Toronto because it's in Taylor Swift week I'm recording it on a Saturday night because my newsletters coming out tomorrow And I need to include a roundup of this in the newsletter. Also if you're here from the newsletter, thank you I've had quite a bit of new followers this week surfing you here.

Welcome. I'm very happy these episodes I'm just Rambling on about my life about Toronto about what's been going on and we have a really nice niche community here So yeah, welcome. I'm looking to expand my newsletter possibly to IRL  and this is what I'm actively working on right now next week is gonna be a busy one and But it's going to be one of the last two busy weeks this year that I have.

I'm also recording new affirmations this week. So if you are a paid subscriber to the podcast, that's amazing. You're going to get some new ones, but yeah so many plans and yeah, I feel like I'm in this era where I just want to be by myself or maybe like with a dedicated group of people that are equally motivated and I just, Want to be even more intentional with how I spend my time and who I spend my time with And it's all about personal projects and passions in this era of my life At least till the end of the year, maybe today till the end of the winter I honestly haven't been going out much like this week.

I've been extra tired  But also I have not been prioritizing it that much. I know there are some new restaurants. I'm going to Saloona today I've been before but yeah, and it's a bit too noisy to my taste and too pretentious But yeah, my friend wanted to go and it's her birthday. Who am I to set my own rules?

You know what? But yeah, honestly haven't tried I don't think I have tried new places this week mostly because I've been home not doing anything I mean working and stuff, but yeah,  but honestly, it's not even a priority anymore You Because, again, I'd rather invest the time and money into something that is serving my bigger goal. 

Because, I've mentioned multiple times that I would like to get out of corporate in the nearest future. Being  next couple of years. And, yeah, I have to be working towards these goals. I don't have time even to dance that much. It brings me enormous pleasure and I'm definitely got it. Be doing this to some extent, but yeah  These past month made me realize that  other things are at stake and I'm not getting any younger, so Yeah, I'd rather  invest my time in something else.

So hopefully you find that motivating I'm also I also joined I don't know if you guys heard of slow nights  They are a creative community and they have this thing that's called accountability buddy club And we just gather together every Monday night and we just have an hour and a half to work on our projects outside of work.

And it's a very nice community because everybody's there is motivated and you just work alongside each other. You're around people and at the same time you have no excuse to not work on your project. So this has been great. It's a four week thing and we are on week two now, which has been pretty fun.  So yeah, maybe I'll do something like this in the future with my community because I feel like it's so important to just have other people that you're accountable to maybe indirectly, but it's just nice when there is a dedicated time and you can be with like minded people.

I've been reading Tell Me Lies And honestly, I'm not impressed. I think it's an entertaining book. It's a fun book But I don't think her writing is that good and I actually did not expect that because the show is so good And now I realized how good of a job they did  with Making it into a series  and yeah, I'm very impressed.

I mean I'm entertained and I'm having fun reading it But yeah, I thought it was gonna be a little deeper and a little less.  How do I put it basic?  But yeah, I'm definitely gonna finish it's fine. But yeah  The show, in my opinion, is so much better. I just expected a different vibe, that's it. What else? I think this is it for this week.

The vibes are just very wholesome, dedicated, winter arc, all of that stuff. And, yeah,  the new newsletter. Issues coming out tomorrow have so much stuff. This is also what's frustrating me. I Yeah, I'm just so busy with other stuff that is distracting me from going to more wellness events meeting more wellness people and This is also my focus for next year and for the remainder of the year when I have the time again.

But yeah  the vibes are Goal oriented, focused and all of that. Hopefully you find you guys find it inspiring. Please go all in on your goals we don't have as much time as we think we do and this is so important and it took me a long time to realize that but hopefully this is like the home stretch and Because every year I do get closer and closer to what I want to do. 

And yeah,  I'll see you all next week Thanks for joining